1. |
The Human Condition
05:07
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[Chorus]
Whether you’re standing strong or whether you can’t help but fall
(We’re all livin’ the same way)
Whether you tried your best or whether you never lived at all
(We’re all dyin’ the same way)
Whether you loved and lost or whether you never loved at all
(We’re leavin’ the same way)
Whether the guns have popped or whether or not you ran and stalled
(We’re all bleedin’ the same way)
[Verse 1]
I’m really ready to die as if I’m Chris Wallace
I hate to be this honest, but just like tomorrow you know there ain’t shit promised
It’s the curse of being so quixotic, always two moves away from ruination but still living regardless
Gotta let it out while I’m breathing cause when I die I hope the life that gets read about in the end had a meaning
Born Leo stuck with this fire in my heart
Soul’s frio but it always burns bright in the dark
Had my heart broken many times consecutively
I learned the hard way, this world will test you to see
Just what it takes to make you into the best you can be
It hurts to stargaze too much, you should accept what you see
In every one of these bitter verses it’s easy for you to assume I think all of this shit is worthless
I’ll let you visit my life with lines you can visualize, got words floating in waves like ribbons in the sky like…
[Chorus]
[Verse 2]
Well such as life, that much is right
Even when I can’t help but open up all these cuts at night
I just breathe and let em bleed as if my spirit’s been cauterized and I get the call that god’s arrived
Me and this world are kinda like lovers but star-crossed
I can’t describe the kind of inflictions these scars caused
It’s kinda strange how this life can change in the blink of an eye and stain your heart with the kinda pain that ignites your brain
And makes you reminisce on days when shit wasn’t so difficult
That’s why my pen is sick cause my history’s residual
I wish someone who didn’t know me would go and say some
dumb shit, thinking I could take away this pain with just one wish
Even when some of the seams of my life start coming unzipped
I stand and fight there ain’t a man alike me I roll with the
punches and yet I pull none, my soul is spiteful and
I may be suicidal but I still show to be the most insightful
[Chorus]
[Verse 3]
I can’t ever relax, it’s like I’m addicted to pain
Set to relapse at any minute from the shit in my brain
This is insane, like bitterness sits in my veins but I sift through the flames like the devil lives in my frame
I’m tryna dodge every shot as if nothing can scratch me
Jot heavy plots about my life, something that’s catchy but
still genuine at the end of the day
Anyone who doesn’t like it, man I’ll send em away
My life experiences haven’t been all rainbows and sunshine
The timeline veers as the pain grows, alumni of depressive front lines
Movin’ like a wounded soldier
Walk alone while my heart just grows blue and colder by the second
That’s why I live and let die
Flying right through this dismal existence with red eyes cause I
don’t sleep
Give enough rope and I won’t hang myself
There’s nothin’ else to say cause I’ll die slow just to change my hell
[Chorus]
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2. |
Watch Yourself
04:52
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[Intro]
Just the same as it ever was
We ain’t left just yet
Still here
Aight, yo
Yo
[Verse 1]
Somebody better call the exorcist, coming is the mastermind, Weapon X
Living devilish just for the hell of it
I mastered rhymes, your last in line, fucking irrelevant
Niggas are delicate, I stretch em like old sweater necks
Forever vexed, so I‘m alive as a vampire
Draining your blood you get strangled you with piano wire
Stab a nigga in the fat of his neck
Fast mass murder without burners or grabbin a TEC
I’m a dirty and shifty dog that’s feral that’ll hog tie 30-50 people and put em in peril
My free will gives me elite skills to barrel into your bone marrow with neither of my palms sterile
Your lips quiver at the vision of the most fucking sinister motherfucker that’s willing to split niggas
And if I’m standing behind enemy lines then I abandon peace signs, remember every line like
[Hook x2]
You all better watch what you say, better watch what you do
Death is here and he’s coming for you
Part two and the night’s still young
We’re still on the darkside so you can fight, kill or run but
[Verse 2]
I smack niggas with Novation, with this rapping shit I’m making that back in the day shit
I’m lacing every track with abrasions
I got a hunger for blood and a thirst
I get a rush from the hurt and you’ll get bussed in a hearse
There’s discussions in church about my language because I cause anguish
My raps will leave you brainless
Using several methods for severing heads
Measuring weapons to send you to a bed for dissecting instead
I’m cocking the lead back there’s no stopping the pen, black ink is in my pocket, your neck snaps under the pressure
It’ll be the last thing you ever see
Wounds fester like rotten vegetables
You memories will forever be flooded with images of the devil in disguise
From your eyes to your brain he’s entering
Give niggas shellshock when hell knocks
You’re deadlocked, loud signals of war when my bells rock
[Hook x2]
[Verse 3]
Preaching spoken word of omens
The doors to heaven are no longer open
You stand back choking on black smoke
Coughing up both lungs, you feel the need to hold tongues
Whenever people see me most run
You hyperventilate until your mind degenerates
Buzzing inside your mental plane with pain that resonates
A man on a mission to make your condition critical
Make you minuscule in the physical or digital
I’m tearing straight into your capillaries
Got a plan to stash and bury any adversary tryna pass for scary
Bust your head until the white meat shows
I crush motherfuckers whenever my teeth close
Cause at night I like to sleep with a weapon
I’m searing just like a lethal injection
I’d hop into fucking a mirror just to beat your reflection
Teach you a lesson, and that’s after I get done with deceasing your brethren
[Hook x2]
[Outro]
You all better watch what you say
(better watch what you say)
Better watch what you do
(better watch what you do)
Better watch how you play
(better watch how you play)
Better watch how you move
(better watch how you move)
Is you with it, or is you not?
Yeah, 302 back up in this bitch
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3. |
Like Father Like Son
04:27
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[Intro]
You know
I don’t really like to talk about the shit that goes on in my life
But let me tell y’all a lil story about why I am the fucking way that I am
And I think I should start at the beginning…
[Verse 1]
This shit begins at life’s conception, birthed in July of 97
My sister born five years later, a mighty blessing there’s
Plenty of love but despite this, one’s vices can spiral into a crisis if isn’t guided right then
Year 2G is when things started to go wrong
No longer got security to hold on to, sayin so long
Family structure damaged and punctured, me and my sister cant even understand the disruption
Since I was seven I felt my first dosage of pain
Lack of direction, anxiety just flows through my brain
It all goes through my veins, all you saw is the anger that I fucking showed through my face
Around that time I couldn’t tell you where my dad was at, he was present yet absent can’t help but be mad at that
Separated from care for his kids, worse for wear
The life in his eyes devolved to a worthless stare
[Hook x2]
I’m asking where did you go
Ans if you were planning to leave then why didn’t you let me know?
‘Cause now I can’t help but feel so alone
I guess that’s just the way that shit goes
I got a question though
[Verse 2]
Fast forward, 2006, Delaware from Colorado
Like hell I’m scared that everything would fall apart tho
New lives, new friends, new place, a few times my parents really tried to not lose faith
Feeling lonely in fear like I was Bruce Wayne
Didn’t wanna experience any new pain
I’m just a kid but insanely confused, every day watching from afar seeing my parent’s marriage come loose
Addicted to the liquor he’s tripping into the house
Throwing up the contents of his stomach all on the couch
Head’s pounding, ears ringing at the sound of his spouse
Mom is so sick of the shit she ends up kickin him out
No dad in the house made me an old soul, only my mom with nobody else while tryna tackle both roles
Trapped inside of a chokehold, stashed in my mind years of hurt that I’ll hold until I grow old
At thirteen is really when I first seen just to how
mean the world can be, like it’s tryna hurt me
Comin home despondent from school cause I’m losing my cool, my mood wont respond to the rules that
Life is throwing at me, now I’m acting meager cause I can’t talk about it, and I can’t speak to my family neither
The older I get I’m growing into a loner
I’m trying to be a soldier but I just wanna roll over
Cold shoulders from everyone messing with my emotions
Leave me bleak, I’m wondering why he’s never sober
Bury my face in my iPod I load with music cause I carry my rage without an approach to use it
Got to high school, shit wasn’t much better, mow I’m just traumatized and unable to to get up
Seems like everyone just wont let up
I’m gettin sick of all the pressure, I bet I’d slip and fall if I mess up just
one little thing and let people down, innocence stolen now it can never be found
Now here I am 23 years old
unresolved issues just leave me cold
[Hook x4]
[Outro]
That shit’s crazy man
That shit’s crazy forreal
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4. |
Dead or Alive
04:05
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[Intro]
Yo, uh
Yo, yea
Yo, uh, yo, what the fuck?
Uh, yeah
[Verse 1]
I’m dressed in all black even when it’s like 99 degrees
Always keep a small batch of icy rhymes at least
that’ll press on your mind harder than Lyme’s disease
Better fall back cause you can’t fuck with my prestiege
Lucid I talk to suicide often like flirting
Use my mind to get euthanized or scatter my fucking brain matter all on the wall just like a blind surgeon
I’ll just do it to y’all so that your mind’s hurtin
I know I’m crazy, not slim but shady
Make you hallucinate like you’re carrying rabies
Gone to the hospital pushing a stolen Mercedes with a bomb strapped to my chest so the staff’s pushing up daisies
Peel back the skin and then I crack your chin
Have your body mass going from fat to thin
If you fucking piss me off I’mma count to ten
Surround your men, leave em dead after drowning them
[Hook x2]
You’re gonna get found whether it’s dead or alive
I can tell that you’re scared just by the look in your eyes
There ain’t nowhere to run and there ain’t nowhere to hide
So go and grab your guns and your blades and your knives
[Verse 2]
Am I Xavier or Satan? Who knows? All I know is I’mma
lay you to waste then, your bros can’t even step in the
Way just to save them, imposed my will to place your
Elimination, disposed of kills because I’m
Making your living situation worse, I ain’t thinking about all of the stipulations first
I just straight up burst into a motherfucking fit of rage and curse
Doing you niggas in quick, I’ll stick your face in dirt
Who do you think you’re fucking with? You need to duck and split
Hugging the street while you’re face down, cut up and stripped
Stitches ripping at your skin til your shit breaks
Incisions given with expert precision no mistakes
Swept the rug from under them, use it for smothering
Structures are crumbling when my footsteps are thundering
Put em under like anesthesia, I’mma need ya to surrender before I give you a seizure
You think since I’m 5 foot 8 that I wont violate your face and break it like china plate?
I’m not in the right mind of state to give you niggas anything else, just nothing but blinded hate
[Hook x2]
[Verse 3]
I don’t do black music or white music I make the
soundtrack to you gettin pursued with a knife music
That kill on sight music if I see some slight movement
I’mma lose my mind to it and drive a spike through it
A conduit for insanity, my family
seems a bit concerned cause they haven’t learned how to handle me
I’m awful, you and your mom’ll get a jawful of loose teeth, you know my cruelty is hostile
You wanna send me shots? Try again I’ll dress you in Forget-me-nots
Funeral eulogy read with violins played in the back, bitch don’t chance it I’ll have you dissolved with acid tongue, burn niggas into ashes
It’s almost like I drank Hannibal Lectar’s blood and fucking became a cannibal disconnecting your lungs
Swear to god you shouldn’t be testing me, X’ll leave a
Blood rushing fountain in the spot where your head should be
[Hook x2]
[Outro]
There ain’t nowhere to run
And there ain’t nowhere to run
I can tell that you’re scared
Just by the look in your eyes
Nowhere to run, nowhere to hide
Nowhere
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5. |
Slither
03:58
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[Intro]
Once again found myself at a loss for words
I don’t really got shit to say, but I know if you know you’re gonna feel it
And if you don’t, I don’t really give a fuck so you should listen
Yo, yo
[Verse]
You got a likable face, you give me dap but you a fake
Not genuine, you a liar I ain’t passin’ you no plate
I would rather stay alone than to hang with all you vultures
The hate is strong, dawg I can see through all your motives
I’d rather be in my zone I just keep to myself cause you
You a leech inside of my home and deceitful as hell
So stay out of my proximity, I’m layin’ down the boundaries
So you niggas can’t get to me, preyin’ and tryna hound me
That tone in my voice has got the qualities of knife blades
Right into your face with the way my honesty my scathe
Your actions and intentions are fuckin’ night and day
The way you spit venom I imagine you bite prey
You ain’t nothin but a buncha fuckin’ bloodsuckers
Rotten like some tooth decay, the true is they want you to suffer
Who’s to say I need em in my life I got enough trouble
On my mind, you crossed a line, you pushed the wrong button
I don’t play that so stay back, I’m cleanin’ house like I’m Ajax
You stray rats might lay traps, I’ll squeeze em out for payback
To trust your intuition is a must that shit’s a given
Fuck niggas don’t fit in like a man in a women’s prison
Nigga, you ain’t my homie, so you shouldn’t go calling me
Haven’t seen me in a minute and frontin’ for all to see
That wide smile on your face is a dead giveaway
Don’t penetrate my circle, I’ll hurt you if you don’t gimme space
You’ve been a snake, see all my moves and you try to imitate
You sit and wait idly by tryna assimilate to reap the benefits of some people you won’t remember six months after
This dumb actor, you isn’t clever bitch
Cut the grass low and let em show, cause you assholes had better know what’s good for you in my terrordome
You the reason why my anxiety’s high, panic attacks, can’t stand to be tracked quietly
Why do I even bother with niggas? Just nothin’ but collateral
Shocker, it figures that my fuckin’ trust was crackable
With the niggas that you roll with you gotta pick and choose
I don’t want my time stolen, I got too much shit to lose
Want me to change to try and fit with you? I ain’t buyin’ it
All that talk and bullshittin’ you need you to silence it
Don’t let the slightest bit of kindness confuse you
You’ll find that I’m not the kind of person that you’re used to
Forever removed out of my mind, the point of proving how we ain’t the same and I can promise you that much
Put the locks on the doors, board the windows and put the latch up
Notice when these niggas are bogus and start to act up
I think that there ain’t nothin’ left to say
Niggas that disappear be the niggas that’s with you yesterday
Keep the specific ones close and throw the rest away before they to try catch you with it and put you to rest today
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6. |
Amerikkkan Nightmare
04:34
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[Intro]
Yo
[Verse 1]
I feel like I’m trapped in a nightmare where nobody seems to fight fair
The world beats you to a bloody pulp and leaves you right there
Bleeding out of smashed mouth, fleeting hours you’re passed out, I swear I’m heated and wanna lash out
There’s injustice in every part of the system
Fuck your Three-Fifths, so many started the schisms I swear
repercussions for actions unjust they manifest into to nothing and the reaction’s mistrust we’ve been
sentenced to death by all these power hungry fucks
The menace of black breath, its the fucking country’s crux
I’m constantly wondering am I next
Counting down every second while I stand by vexed
Straight looking over my both of my shoulders
Watching for the cops while living in fear they’re gonna pull me over
Hoping they don’t knock my teeth in the back of my throat
Praying that I won’t be hanging from the gallows and choked
[Hook]
When does it ever end?
It’s like a jungle sometimes, no need to wonder why we keep on going under I ask
When does it ever end?
This county will take your first child, scar your life, cripple your style and still
When does it ever end?
Because everyone knows that we’ve been hurt, we’ve been down before and still
When does it ever end?
We try our best to survive no matter what we try to stay alive, but still
[Verse 2]
White on black crime seems to be y’alls favorite pasttime
Whatever we act like we catch a knife to the backside and
That last line is aimed at all you dangerous motherfuckers, it’s like you ain’t changed a bit from last time
Presidential executions deemed essential
It’s evident you got bad intentions on your mentals
Stenciled bodies lying dead full of lead like a pencil, numbers are exponential
Families cry so I’m fully judgmental
A nation burns cause these motherfuckers never learn
Fighting for the rights these fuckers think we have to earn
Take down their whole administration
My motiavtion is to put a stake through the heart of the operation
Standing ovation for the land of the oppressed
Distressed and dressed for all the shit that I express
People prepared to beat y’all to death, stealing the breath of motherfuckers that are fake kneeling for rep
[Hook]
[Verse 3]
These cowards in polos go pull out gats
Lookin like somebody had the cast of Full House strapped
People try and call it self-defense, Shit, I call it evil, defense at someone else’s expense
A deadly precedent set by your former fucking president
Heavy malevolence for every unlucky resident
Acting all high and mighty like you’re divinely heaven sent
But when you’re set on melanin it’s to a less extent
Ever since I discovered this I just look at y’all funny
Hypocritical christians fronting and shit like they love me
But I can already tell that you see as ugly cause you’re
shook, you’d rather see me in hell or be hungry
Under a bridge or hanging with a rope in a tree
With both of my feet dangling, hoping I bleed
Goddamn consider this shit the start of a payback
When we shoot sign the death certificates and the name tags
[Hook]
[Outro]
(When does it ever end?)
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7. |
Quit Running (Interlude)
00:46
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8. |
Setting Sun
05:18
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[Intro]
I got a weird, weird way of looking at life sorta, but
If I can leave y’all with anything, I’mma let it be this
[Hook]
So when it’s time I lay in the ground, keep on playin my sounds
Lord knows I wasn’t meant for stayin around
Life or death or at whatever fucking time is left
I’mma live forever even when my sun has set
When it’s time I lay in the ground, keep on playin my sounds
Lord knows I wasn’t meant for stayin around
Life or death or at whatever fucking time is left
I’mma live forever even when my sun has set
[Verse 1]
Let me lay it out for you here, play it out in front of your peers
I ain’t backin down from nothin, get smacked around for judgin
As the world turns I grow colder but I’ll stay hot enough to watch it burn, I swear to god you got a lot to learn
About my life, I won’t ever let shit blow over without a fight, like striking a match it’s burnin down tonight
Safeguarded my heart behind some bars that’s harder than steel, I don’t need niggas to pardon my zeal
I’m sparking a feel, go in like a shark for the kill
Don’t give a fuck about what most of you niggas be thinkin cause
I know deep inside of my heart the shit’s real
You have me disregarded be very aware that your karma is sealed
Alone with stress you never expect the mind to think
The only rest I’m geting is everytime I blink because
I’m the product of a life that’s been unfair to me
So I started writing to make it so you wouldn’t dare to breathe
[Hook]
[Verse 2]
Fuck it, you wanted me to be honest? Well you got it
This fucking mind of mine is racing at every topic
Skeletons in my closet and questions that need some solving I’m
Constantly living this life when I would rather off it
I swear to god this flesh prison makes me nauseous
So I scream fuck the world, I want it hurled in a coffin
I’ll never stop until shit’s better off or until the metal pops and the contents of my mental drop
I’ll set it off like Dana, Kane, or Madball, outfitting pain that’s tailor made to every glass jaw
Make you take the last fall cause I’m finished with limits all of you
motherfuckers get quickly distanced for bitching
I’m flipping the switch, straight up switching the script
Keep playing games I’ll make you niggas sit in a ditch
I’m gonna be on the ready, no running from a motherfucking thing even when my heart is heavy
Turn all this shit to ancient history
Dismiss all the misery til that shit’ll be a distant memory
Thoughts leaking like drained blood on the street, I’ll never stop conceiving ways for my release
[Hook]
[Verse 3]
Like a storm kicking dust up, form a warm blood rush
Pouring fear in the heart with all the words that I construct
Cause I’m simply an army of one, holdin my own against all of those claiming they’ll harm me for fun
I don’t front as if I’m tougher than most but I’m grown ass man so I’m making sure you ain’t coming too close
A man that’s constantly at war with himself subconsciously, you gotta be bringing more to put a stop to me
Pen is perilous, put it to the pad you’ll need a therapist to prescribe the medicine
you need to the cure the disease, anything just to put an end to it, self-esteem I used to never have a shred of it
I write my thesis cause I need this to survive, capture my pain since you won’t see it through your eyes
Hang onto the words in the verse, there’s no love lost til you lay with the worms in the dirt
Waiting for the day the blood cuts off cause I won’t snuff out the flames until my fucking name rubs off
Hit you with the kiss of death, didn’t even have to lift a tech, I spit the type of shit to make you grip for breath
Word to Jada, I could die now or die later, but I would prefer not to waste the paper
Make you taste my anger and face the danger, fuck your praises I ain’t breaking until they hate Xavier
[Hook]
[Outro]
At this point I don’t think there’s anything else left to say
So I’mma just leave this shit right here
End of story
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9. |
In Cold Blood
04:43
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[Intro]
Ah dawg, it's funny
It's funny these niggas man
Can't stand these niggas dawg, I swear
It's aight though
Yo
What?, yo, uh
Yo, yo
[Verse 1]
Peep the genome, we know you and I ain’t the same nigga
Pathetic lame niggas’ll get it
Bring the pain quicker than bullet slugs crackin your spine in three places
Pull the plug, get slapped outta line til you need braces
Flatlined into deep stasis, both hands bloody but I don't leave traces
You and your buddies - I erase em
That’s my profession, professor X a vile weapon
Sickest scientist, there’s no denying this guy’s a blessing straight the devil himself
I’m just a vessel for hell cause everywhere that I fucking go my presence is felt
Until I make the whole room shiver with fear
There’s ain’t no smoke and mirrors here, nigga the picture is clear
I’m a psychiatric basket case, my actions make me a quite erratic
So relax before your grimy ass is casket based
I strike reactive as if I got nothin to live for
You're not equipped for what’s in store because my shit’s raw
[Hook x2]
Time to let the blood spill, let it all flow (let it all flow)
Make it so nobody lives to see tomorrow (see tomorrow)
Every carcass is drained, all bodies hollow (bodies hollow)
Niggas think they’re prepared until they all choke ('til they all choke)
[Verse 2]
I’ll check you, I said to watch yourself so now you better head to
Safety, don’t make me cock the pen again and catch you
I bet you I’ve got enough shit in my head to dead you
Hit you in your chest, head, and neck, ready to end you
Don’t give a fuck if I offend you, I suggest you live it up while you still can
Bloodshed causin your skin to rust, I’m too ill man
Somebody put my wrists in cuffs to keep me from going nuts
Itching just to split your gut, nigga what?
Clear some space, open up the flood gates
Loud sounds crash around your ear drums like a gun range
Possessed with sick prowess, I can’t leave the rest alive
I'd rebuild the Twin Towers to wreck em a second time
You couldn’t tighten these screws, I’m convinced my soul is missing
Remove your aorta and tubes and choke you with em
Drop the games you’ll never be able to stop the pain
I can’t help but to be drawn to maim just like a moth to flame
[Hook x2]
[Verse 3]
X. Kubrick, not Jesuit but verbally divine
Step to this - your martyrdom comes, murder your bloodline
I stay in my lane, no patience for snotty little punks
I’m full throttle like I had a body in the trunk
You won’t beat em, you might as well quit cause you can’t join em
No preacher, consult a coroner to get anointed
Heed my words just like they all came ripped from scriptures
Need to learn the differences between us, get the picture
I’m using your own blood to cleanse you of mortal sins
Ruthless like Bone Thugs cause only the lord forgives
These are the thoughts of a mentally-scarred bastard
I stay calloused cause we’re eventually all passing
Nothin but tragedy spun into every masterpiece
Casualties of mental warfare, vocal battery
Don’t be mad at me, I had to be the one to break it to you
Sacrifice your life to the dirt like Haitian Vodou
I got the darkest blood bleeding from this black heart
Redefinition, the new meaning of a black star
Like a supernova collapsing the earth’s atmosphere I
lose control of myself and reverse your birth back some years
[Hook x4]
[Outro]
Yeah, y'all know what's up
X. Kubrick, bringing you back to the dark side of this shit, what's up
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X. Kubrick Delaware
302 | Rapper and producer
Contact: xmwilson97@gmail.com
Photo credit: Bryanna Bennett
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