[Intro]
You know
I don’t really like to talk about the shit that goes on in my life
But let me tell y’all a lil story about why I am the fucking way that I am
And I think I should start at the beginning…

[Verse 1]
This shit begins at life’s conception, birthed in July of 97
My sister born five years later, a mighty blessing there’s
Plenty of love but despite this, one’s vices can spiral into a crisis if isn’t guided right then
Year 2G is when things started to go wrong
No longer got security to hold on to, sayin so long
Family structure damaged and punctured, me and my sister cant even understand the disruption
Since I was seven I felt my first dosage of pain
Lack of direction, anxiety just flows through my brain
It all goes through my veins, all you saw is the anger that I fucking showed through my face
Around that time I couldn’t tell you where my dad was at, he was present yet absent can’t help but be mad at that
Separated from care for his kids, worse for wear
The life in his eyes devolved to a worthless stare

[Hook x2]
I’m asking where did you go
Ans if you were planning to leave then why didn’t you let me know?
‘Cause now I can’t help but feel so alone
I guess that’s just the way that shit goes
I got a question though

[Verse 2]
Fast forward, 2006, Delaware from Colorado
Like hell I’m scared that everything would fall apart tho
New lives, new friends, new place, a few times my parents really tried to not lose faith
Feeling lonely in fear like I was Bruce Wayne
Didn’t wanna experience any new pain
I’m just a kid but insanely confused, every day watching from afar seeing my parent’s marriage come loose
Addicted to the liquor he’s tripping into the house
Throwing up the contents of his stomach all on the couch
Head’s pounding, ears ringing at the sound of his spouse
Mom is so sick of the shit she ends up kickin him out
No dad in the house made me an old soul, only my mom with nobody else while tryna tackle both roles
Trapped inside of a chokehold, stashed in my mind years of hurt that I’ll hold until I grow old
At thirteen is really when I first seen just to how
mean the world can be, like it’s tryna hurt me
Comin home despondent from school cause I’m losing my cool, my mood wont respond to the rules that
Life is throwing at me, now I’m acting meager cause I can’t talk about it, and I can’t speak to my family neither
The older I get I’m growing into a loner
I’m trying to be a soldier but I just wanna roll over
Cold shoulders from everyone messing with my emotions
Leave me bleak, I’m wondering why he’s never sober
Bury my face in my iPod I load with music cause I carry my rage without an approach to use it
Got to high school, shit wasn’t much better, mow I’m just traumatized and unable to to get up
Seems like everyone just wont let up
I’m gettin sick of all the pressure, I bet I’d slip and fall if I mess up just
one little thing and let people down, innocence stolen now it can never be found
Now here I am 23 years old
unresolved issues just leave me cold

[Hook x4]

[Outro]
That shit’s crazy man
That shit’s crazy forreal